HerOnly,

♥ Love is tough, but it all worth it.
Thursday, April 25, 2013 12:57 AM I don't know what I'm thinking. ♥ 3 yrs 10 months and counting. I've to learn how to accept some facts that can't be avoided. She needs him? I starting to feel insecure but what can I do? Everytime I tried to list out my unhappiness, she'll start to grunt about I don't trust her and stuff. So from now, I'll just keep everything either here or to myself. I've no idea what she does with him outside always, and I dun really wish to know too. It just breaks my heart even if I know that they are just outside together alone. I've never felt so so so so so insecure before and I don't know why I'm like that. Maybe due to some previous factors that are affecting my feelings? I love her a lot, and I admit, I've been too nice to her. I don't have any stand and opinion, and every opinion I made, to me, it just seems like I gonna hurt her. I just wish that, one fine day, you'll understand my feelings and start to slowly disappear from him. You said you don't have feelings for him. You said you don't love him. But from my POV, it doesn't seems that way sometimes. It just feel like, you always prioritize him more than me at times. IDK why too... Maybe is just me, my dumb feelings. TBH, I don't really find love anymore... I just feel that you're staying for the sake of staying and cause it's a 4 years long r/s and you don't wish to let it go. How long can I hold? Sigh... Fuck love. It just hurts me since I was 13. If this is gone, I might go around shattering people's heart, and let it be. I hate myself too... for letting you too much, and getting used to it.. I just need some security, that's all.. I suppose it's hard to gain... Once you lose it, wanting it back is twice as hard as you got it the first time. Ruth, I do love you a lot, but I have my limit too. I'm not stopping you, but at least... please... I'm your bf... not him right? Sigh... maybe you're like day since day 1..... TBH, i only go for a training and will try to be back asap, yet just few hours, you still wanna meet him and even go for a movie. I'm still thinking whether what you said about I go army and you'll wait for me stuff, will it really happen... Sigh...	Yours truly, 21(: 6th May 1991(: A life that have past thru thicks and thins. 788444753459 ♥ With Loves, ♥ 3 Years have past, and our bond grew stronger and stronger. ♥ My Story, Here's a story of a boy, Living in the lonely world, A hidden note, A secret crush, A little girl who talks too much. Well, I'm standing in the crowd, And when you smile I check you out, But you don't even know my name, You're too busy too even look at me, And I want you too know, If you lose your way, I will lead you the right way. If I cut my hair, If I change my clothes, Will you notice me? If I bite my lip, If I say hello, Will you notice me? At last, you turned and look, Noticed me and said hello, And be with me without any regrets^^. Materialistic, Click for my wishlist! Reminisce, January 2013 April 2013 August 2013 Friends, My Love. Time, Date, Applause, Simplify ThisLove / dog10394 Visitor,
I Love You.